I was recently listening to an incredible episode of the Tim Ferris show and stopped dead in my tracks when Tim said this:
In fact, I would say for the vast majority of my adolescence and certainly throughout high school and college, I somehow came to the conclusion that I was just not designed to be happy. That evolution did not optimize for happiness, and I just did not have the code for happy and that was okay. That I would be an instrument of competition, I would learn to be good at various things that were valued at colleges and then by the business world and so on, and that it was not worth trying to be happy, or to not just love myself, but really have a high opinion of myself.
In fact, that was self-indulgent and that I would just focus on being the best competitor possible, and hopefully turning that into something that was not only of value to me to that I was rewarded for, but that would help other people, and that perhaps I would find some joy in the joy of other people, but that was the extent of it.
https://tim.blog/2018/12/20/the-tim-ferriss-show-transcripts-dr-peter-attia-vs-tim-ferriss/
Man, that’s almost too real.